Daniel E. Renfer’s Blog

Even at 400 words per minute it still takes me an average of 3 minutes to read one of my posts. One of the interesting things about having a bit of photographic memory is I can read over one of my old posts and accurately recall everything that happened. All the sights, the smells, the sounds, what exactly I was feeling. And the more I write, the more I can picture the day. So if my posts ever seem tedious, bear in mind that I am not writing this for you. My live journal posts are intended for me and for me alone as a medium to record history (as well as a bit of therapy) I do not bother to lock or protect my most private of thoughts in any way. All I offer to you is the warning that you were never intended to read this. I can not be held responsible for anything about me you may not like.

I’ll record my past few days’ events later. I’m tired.

I spent most of the time today updating my journal. I was away for a few days and then had a really hectic next few days. My mom asked me again how much money I would be paying her. She also, (although this is breaking chronological orders) asked when I would be getting a job, and when I would be getting my next check.

My bills are just piling up with her. I’m paying $575 (I’m estimating because I can’t quite remember) a month. Currently I am unemployed, but previously I had a good job, and still I’ve begun to sink further and further into debt. I think I’ve just changed my mind right now. I’m down to just over 2000 dollars into debt. I had let it get rather high, and then fought vigorously to bring it down to a proper level. I was doing well, then I hit a bump and sunk again.

This is the story of my life. I’m at the very bottom of my pit, and it is by far no time to consider moving back out. Plus having time to reflect on the people I would be moving in with. While they would be cool, and defiantly acceptable to live with. I’m afraid that it won’t be a very good atmosphere to get on with my life. Wow, I probably shouldn’t have started this tonight. Time to get on with my life. I’m going to sleep.

Tuesday morning, Candice was waiting for us when we got off the bus. Detroit mornings are so much colder than Tennessee afternoon’s. I was still wearing my shorts, big mistake.

We go back to my house. Candice and I fell asleep, eventually. I guess this chapter of my life is pretty much devoted to the legendary party my brother threw while my parent’s were gone. Andy wanted me to stay and hang out a little bit more, but I wanted to stay out of it as much as possible. It wasn’t my party, and the less I saw, the better I would feel about it.

After Candice left, I went and picked up John. We went over to Ryan’s house. I got to tell them about my weekend, and about the huge bash that was going on right then at my house. We leave so that I could go back home and check on them. Andy was doing a pretty good job of keeping everything under control, despite the fact that there had to be 30+ people there.

Candice had a concert to go to, so I wouldn’t be seeing her that night, even though it was Tuesday. I guess you could say she blew me off. :p John and I went over to Mark’s house. Not that many of my friend’s have met Mark or Mark’s people, but I’m considering moving into a house with Chris and Steve, so it’s probably best if I start trying to merge the two groups a little more.

We watched Death to Smoochy. We were just about to the very end, the very climax of the movie when I get a call. “Get home now!” “Why?” “Just get home now!” Never say that to me. Give me some idea of what’s going on. I’m driving home having no idea what is happening, for all I knew the house was on fire, the TV was broken, someone fell and split their head open, and the police were taking everyone into custody. And I’m not exactly the soberest I could be.

So I’m freaking out a bit. It turns out that some kids had shown up, who weren’t exactly welcome. When they tried to kick them out, a fight broke out. Everything was well under control by the time we got there, but I was shaking, I was so nervous. We decided to hang out there the rest of the night. Jacob came over after he got off work. Jacob and John left together, the party died down to just those that were spending the night.

Wednesday, I wake up and go over to Candice’s. I was supposed to watch Emit, but when I got there I found out they didn’t need me to. Oh well, It would have been nice to have a little extra income (by this time I am flat broke) but at least I got to see Candice for a little bit before she went to school.

Next, I went to Ann Arbor to see Melissa for lunch. Well, I guess if you never actually go get anything to eat it can’t be considered lunch, but her lunch break anyway. I told her about my vacation. Things got a bit emotional, but not too bad. I go home. Jacob shows up. Turns out he had a diabetic seizure the night before. He really needs to take better care of his health. John gets there just after Jacob leaves, followed by Dave and Garret.

We clam baked the dog house. Have you ever seen 4 people try to fit into a dog house? great day out, so we spend a lot of time in the back yard. We found a latter and went on the roof. This event makes my brother more reasonable than me. Funny that he can throw a huge bash full of drunk 15/16 year olds, and I can manage to be more irresponsible.

Dave get’s the tape of Monday’s RAW and we watch it up in my room. It’s funny because my VCR is in the other room next to my computer, so we had to walk out of the room to fast forward the tape. Andy Herron and two other kids showed up. One I “knew” from high school, the other I didn’t know. Jacob shows up and says “There are cops sitting outside your house, here’s your weed” We all look out the window, and sure enough, there were 2 cop cars sitting outside my house.

They leave a few minutes later, but it was still enough to freak us out. Jacob leaves, Andy’s two friends leave, finally Andy leaves, we decide that we’re hungry having exhausted everything in the house that’s even remotely appealing. We go to Farmer Jack and decide on some kind of pizza casserole thing, it was pretty good. When we get back it turns out that the cops had been there. It seems that in the time that Andy was over, someone had driven by and shot out his window with a BB gun. so that was some shit. We hang out for a while longer, and things die down.

Thursday, Candice comes over first thing in the morning. You know, there is nothing better than being awoken by a woman crawling into your bed first thing in the morning, except maybe of course, having her crawl into your bed the night before. After Candice left I went out to James’ house. We picked up Kali when she got off work and went to the comic shop in Ann Arbor. Played a few games of magic, and then left. We all had places we needed to be.

I get home, and John and Dave show up maybe 10 minutes later. We watch smack down. I’m not really into that show as much. I only really know what’s going on with RAW, so Smack down is completely alien to me. It was hilarious watching Brad. (this short little white kid) trying to do a freestyle rap battle with this other kid. Brad was so drunk. All you could really make out was “Motherfucker, motherfucker” and I think he said something about spaghetti.

Blue shows up. They watch me play FFX. John went over to Dan-O’s and eventually Blue and Dave took off as well. Friday, I was under the impression that Candice would be coming over as soon as she dropped off Emit, so was a little surprised when I woke up and she wasn’t there. I was going to message her, but she wasn’t online. I went up to James’ work for a little bit. I figured she would be calling me soon, and I would meet up with her as soon as she called. (I didn’t know that I only had $0.01 left on my phone, so it wasn’t working) I know I really should have called her instead of waiting for her to call me.

I went home, played some FFX, and waited for Candice to call, she didn’t, so I called her, got her voice mail, had to go give my brother’s friend a ride, then went to Christin’s. Seems that Candice had been there waiting for me to call. She was mad at me, which I suppose I deserved. We met up with Matt and C(god I can’t remember her real name right now) at Zack’s. You know when the manager comes by and asks if everything is all right then you’ve been there too long.

We went back to Christin’s and as with the trend with Friday night’s lately. Lee was being a total ass. I don’t care if you do pay part of the rent, if you’re sleeping on the couch because you’re too fucking lazy to go get your furniture so you can sleep in your own room, then you’re being a pain. And if you want someone to get off the couch, saying “move it or lose it” isn’t the best way to put it.

So we find that our former Friday night have has once again been deemed invaded by an annoying roommate, so once again we plan on going to my house. I pull up and see my parents talking to the cops. oh shit! Turns out that Jeff’s $3200 set of golf clubs is missing. My brother is so busted. They’re not all to happy with me either. It wasn’t my party and I tried to stay as hands off as possible, but I’m still the responsible adult, so they’re disappointed in me.

I feel so bad about it. They didn’t deserve to have to come home to that. They had just given us the sweetest weekend, and they find out that my brother had been throwing a party. So now my house is out too. I hung out at home for about an hour, just to appease my parents, but as soon as they went to bed, I went over to Candice’s.

We played Scrabble. It’s funny to play word games with bad spellers. I’m not the greatest, but Christin isn’t that good. (could be worse… could be frank) Then we watched Panic Room. Not bad, Went home.

Saturday. Had all this shit not gone down, then Candice would have been over in the morning, but it did happen, and my mom was mad at the both of us. She gave us a list of chores that needed to be done. I mowed the lawn and found one of the golf clubs. Cleaned most of the upstairs and did my laundry. I left most of the actual punishment stuff up to my brother.

I got my unemployment check. Unfortunately my mom opened it, and attached to it a sticky note saying “Dan - This represents roughly 25% of your debt to me. Eviction proceedings and car repossession are the next step in this process. - mom” I owe her a lot of money and she’s starting to get really mad. It was a bit harsher than it would have been had she not been mad at the both of us.

Anyone know of any places that are hiring? I need a job like today. I’m not grounded. (It would be funny to see them try) I go over to Candice’s for a few hours, then I go to Mark’s house. Mark was having a bon fire. We toasted hot dogs and drank beers. Chris and Mark were going to try to each drink 12, didn’t happen. Chris had 8, mark had 5, I had 6. We discussed the arrangements for moving in if we get this house. I just need to get a job really fast, and then I have to break the news to my mom. Eventually (after I had sobered up) I went home and slept.

Sunday (today) I played some FFX and have been writing some LJ posts. I let this go way too long and now that I’m caught up, it won’t take me all day to catch up with what I’ve been doing. Well, I guess I’m off to do more to write about…

Okay, It’s been well over a week since I’ve updated what I’ve been doing. I tried to write out my vacation, but I stopped mid-way and then My computer crashed, so I lost all of it.

So here we go again. I quickly learned that taking a bus on a long trip wasn’t as romantic as I’d hoped it’d be. And not nearly as comfortable. I got stuck next to the window and this big guy who liked to spread out a little bit. He was reading the Wrestler’s digest. I know a little bit about wrestling now, since I’ve been devoting my Monday nights to going over to Brian’s house, but I didn’t feel comfortable enough to strike up a conversation.

We had to change busses in Cincinnati, but we hit a traffic jam on the way down and our bus had already left. We would ask them what bus we were supposed to be getting on, and they told us that we needed to be on the bus in dock 10. Now wait. Didn’t I just get off the bus in dock 10? So I need to get back on that bus, but it’s also not my bus, maybe I should ask someone else… Dock 9. Okay, there’s no bus in dock 9. Ask someone else. Dock 10 again, but once again not this bus. Every time I asked where I was supposed to be I would get a different answer. I did manage to find out that I was going to be stuck in Cincinnati for like 2 hours.

Come to think of it. Isn’t that where the mom in home alone was stuck? I should watch that movie again and see if I recognize anything. We finally get a bus. I get to sit next to a really thin Asian girl, plus I had the aisle seat. Much better. We were supposed to be in Knoxville at 8, but didn’t get there till noon. Traffic was horrible going to the cabin. Pigeon Forge/Gatlinburg is a total tourist trap. Everywhere you look you see shops, attractions, and the other misc. shit to draw in and take unsuspecting dupes’ money.

The cabin was awesome. Hot tub on the back porch. Pool table and arcade games downstairs. Granted, all the games were quite old and two of them didn’t work, plus you could only turn left in asteroids, but still… how cool is that?

Everyone left and gave me and my brother a chance to recover a bit from our 13 hour bus ride. Hot tub time. Later we went to Damon’s. Jeff likes to go eat at these way too expensive restaurants. Jeff’s mom, grandma, and aunt were flirting with our waiter.

Maybe that was why they liked their food. My brother, and my burgers’ were horrible. My mom’s ribs were practically all fat. Jeff sat on the line between the two tables. His chicken was good, but didn’t like the sauce.

Afterward we went go-kart racing. Andy and I couldn’t run the really fast cars because he wasn’t 16 yet, and I had left my wallet back at the cabin. Jeff is a total adrenalin freak. loves to race. They made a bet on who would win one of the races, me or my brother. I was kicking so much ass. I was clearly winning when I got spun completely around and hit dead on. Why the hell won’t go-kart’s go in reverse? By the time I got straitened out, he had passed me.

So we leave and on the way back, Jeff got a ticket for going 81 in a 45 mph zone. see what I mean about adrenaline freak? And on the eve. of his wedding no less. He didn’t seem too shaken up. He has so many fucking contacts on the police force that all he has to do is make one phone call and it’ll be thrown out. What I wouldn’t give for that power.

Next Day, Saturday. We wake up early (okay, early for me) get dressed, and go to the chapel. It was this small little chapel in Gatlinburg. Wedding chapel’s are a dime a dozen down there. This one was made out of logs. Jeff builds and sells log homes, so of course that would be where they would decide to be married.

My Brother was chosen to be the best man. He had someone else, but he dropped out, so it went to Andy. The funny thing is I didn’t know about this until Melissa told me. What kind of world is it when my ex-girlfriend knows more about what’s going on than I do? I gave my mother away. It’s ironic that the son of the bride has to act as the father of the bride.

The wedding was nice. Unfortunately the song that they picked for their song, has an immense emotional impact on me. So I’m standing up there (during the candle lighting ceremony) knowing that I’m on camera, trying not to cry. It just wouldn’t look good. Picture’s galore. If I ever get the ability to go back in time, I’m going to slap whoever came up with the idea of making the train on wedding dresses so goddamn long.

They did the whole releasing the doves thing. The dove pooped on Jeff. We also went up to the bluff where they do some of the weddings. They got the honeymoon suite as part of the same passage. We had to go up this winding narrow road way up the mountain. I’ve always had problems with my ears, and changes in elevation affect me greatly. It was such an awesome view up there. I’ll post some of the pictures as soon as I get them from my mom.

Next, we went to Friday’s. Still dressed up. They got “Saranarded”. Andy was taking pictures for his friend back home, who wasn’t able to come. This includes posing with the cute waitress. Go home, change, then we got some spending money and were dropped off in downtown Gatlinburg.

We visited the Ripley’s Believe it or not museum. Man that place was cool. It was full of all the interesting little oddities that anyone that knows me, knows that I live for. Andy bought a new eyebrow ring, and we were talking to the lady about clitoral piercing. Great conversation, huh? We hit an arcade, and while Andy tried a game, I collected money from all the coin returns. Went to a sword shop and I bought some batman throwing stars. We go back to the cabin, spend more time in the hot tub. (This was pretty much what we did every night)

Next morning, Sunday. Hear that my mom and Jeff were hung over. Jeff’s family leaves to go back home. So now the cabin is empty except for me and Andy. They come and pick us up, and we go for pancakes. The pancake shop was closed. So we go across the street, to guess where? Friday’s!

Now I don’t really mind their food, but I had my heart set on breakfast, and just because a restaurant is 3 times as expensive as what you can get at the local family dinner, it doesn’t mean it’s 3 times a good. You could tell that none of us were all too thrilled at eating at Friday’s again, but no one would say anything to Jeff.

Sat on the patio, got horrible service. I actually felt justified in witnessing him leave a 10% tip. I normally never tip much below 20%, but this guy deserved it. I’m always willing to ignore bad service as a result of the server having a “bad day”, but this went well beyond that. Walk around in Gatlinburg again. They had these ski lift things that went up the mountain. you can visit the gift shop at the top! And it only cost’s $10 to get there.

They spent so much money doing shit. They bought a wooden sign for Millie’s (our dog) log cabin dog house, that Jeff built.

We hit the arcade’s next. I found T-Mek. I love that game, and I had just been talking about it. Fun! We picked up some movies and the dropped us off at the cabin. So Andy and I have this cabin all to ourselves, on 4/20! We hung out and watched TV and sat in the hot tub the rest of the night.

Monday. We had to check out, so we packed up our stuff, then went to breakfast. We actually got it this time. Next, we went to “hillbilly golf” I am NOT a golfer. I started doing a little better, but had a lot of trouble in the beginning.

Next, we went thought the Smoky Mountains National Park. So many beautiful views! My ears were really hurting 6000 ft. up. I bottled some water that was flowing down the mountain. It was yellow! So much for the purity of mountain crisp spring water.

Next, we went to eat at Fuddrucker’s. They have huge hamburger’s, and a funny name. Next, we went on a helicopter tour. I got to sit in the co-pilot seat. I want a pilot’s license. Next, we went to the Heritage log home national headquarters. It was funny, because they didn’t recognize Jeff, so they treated us like normal customers. Cool house. I want a ton of money to built a huge house, but then again… who doesn’t?

Head back to Knoxville to catch a bus. I had to run over to a bar and buy a pack of cigarettes from a vending machine. The ride home was much more comfortable. I sat next to Andy for the first leg of the trip. Sure it’s still cramped, but he’s my brother, so it’s not as bad.

We stopped at a gas station and I bought 2 cartons of cigarettes. Back to Cincinnati. Wait there for 2 more hours. God, I hate that bus stop now. I grabbed my own seat, hoping I would be able to ride in comfort. Nope, someone sat next to me. Eventually, we make it back to Detroit. and that was my vacation to Tennessee.

Why do people torture themselves? Why is it that whenever someone is depressed, they will listen to depressing music, or read old notes, or do all the things that have no purpose than to make their depression worse?

Wed., April 16, 2003 (After last post)

I went to Ryan’s house. It was getting kinda late, but maybe it would offer up some opportunities. After KO, I hung out with Massey. We drove around looking for something to do… We didn’t find it. I dropped him off and then went out to Matt’s house. I walked in to see the very end of “8 Mile” Brandon was there. It was kinda cool because I hadn’t talked to him in a while. Next we watched a bit of porn, up until we realized what we were doing, and someone got up the will to turn it off. Next I watched them play Mortal Kombat.

Thursday

Candice comes over and hangs out for a bit. Andy skipped school so was home early. Next, I went to lunch with Kali. We were sitting there in my

car when I saw James walk up. Small world. It turns out he’s working across the street from Kali. I talked to him about music. It turns out that my

brother’s friend couldn’t come with us, he was pretty bummed out. I made my post about having another ticket, and 2 seconds later, John called. Alas, he couldn’t come.

We went to Ryan’s for a bit, then I came home, took Brad home, called Candice. I’m by now running just a tad late. My directions to the bus station were all fucked up, so I got lost in downtown Detroit. The second I find it, I get trapped on the highway going the wrong way. I was getting really pissed off. Luckily, we made our bus on time.

That’s all you get for now bitches

Anyone want to go to Tennessee with me? We have an extra ticket… We leave tonight so call me soon…

Does anyone know Ger and Charlotte’s last names respectively?

Monday, I finished my post, Kali called me. Our attempts to have lunch on Friday was kinda a bust, so I was going to go out there, but there was no one else to do her job in the office, so I couldn’t come out till 3. We went to Wendy’s. Thankful, the entire adventure of trying to find a place to cash her check, had the benefit of allowing us to scout for some better fast food places in the area.

Next, I went to Candice’s’. They’re showing Highlander on TV from the beginning right now. I have always wanted to be Immortal for one reason. Immortals have the very best pick up line I have ever heard. “I’m Immortal” Watch any of the movies, he says that, Boom! Instant hot kinky sex scene. Now is that cool or what? I suppose the things like living forever, and sensing other immortals, and magically being able to pull a huge katana out of nowhere (because you never see it get in the way when they’re seducing the beautiful woman that’s caught on to them) would be cool too.

I left Candice’s at 8, and I still had a tiny window to stop in at Melissa’s house to see her new rats. I was there maybe 7 minutes tops. Just long enough to get pooped on. I left when Dave showed up. (I know, I’m a coward, but read on) We couldn’t go to Brian’s for some reason or another, so we had to go over to Dave’s house. Dave’s mom was watching his

son, but she put him downstairs with us. I guess there was some controversy over it, but personally, he was quiet. Now if we couldn’t hear the TV over Barney, then I can see there being cause for concern, but no.

Tuesday morning, am awaken to the call of my

mother alerting me to the fact that I have company. I awaken, dress, and go to greet Candice. We went shopping for Emit’s Easter Basket. We went to Toys’R'Us, Target, and Best Buy. Three of my favorite stores. I’m such a little kid sometimes.

Next, I went home, finished the remainder of the drink I had made on my bedside from the night before. I made it a bit too strong. I got a tiny little buzz and then went down to the park to go rollerblading. It was windy out so I only did one lap. I went home, took a nap, and played Final Fantasy X. Then I went back to Candice’s.

Saw the new episode of Smallville. That means my collection is once again incomplete. Why don’t they just go ahead and cancel all of my favorite shows, so I don’t have to be bothered by trying to scour the Internet for the latest episode. I went driving for a little bit after I left Candice’s. (wasn’t quite ready to go home)

I saw Dave riding his bike.Today. (that’s Wednesday for those of you who aren’t paying attention) I woke up. I lounged around the house, I went to go see Christin. I hadn’t seen her since Friday night. Lee was asleep on the couch, still. (12:30) She’s getting mad about it, I don’t blame her. Charice showed up.

I leave, go to A&W. I talked to my old manager. She asked about melissa. You don’t know how much it hurts to have to tell people that I havn’t seen in a while that, no, we broke up this past summer. And I’ve gotten looks of dissapointment from people, not from Sue per se, but in general, and then they will say something positive, and ocasionally ask the question “Do you think you’ll get back together?” Which is always a difficult question to answer.

Yes, yes I do, but I’ve come to the realization that even if that were to be a distant possability, I must operate as if it were not. so your answer is “No” That’s a whole lot to say to someone that I haven’t seen in a very long time. Speaking of which, I saw Ashely today. It’s been a really long time since I’ve seen her. We’ve talked online and inadvertantly through live journals, but aside from seeing her at Denny’s a few months ago. (I beleive I documented it, but I’m too lazy to cross reference right now) I haven’t seen her since this one day a few years ago where I saw her in the parking lot of the Garden City library. I don’t know when the time was before that. I wish I could recall things more exactly. I wonder if she remembers that time. (The answer to that is always no) Jeff, Andy, and I went to pick up our Tuxedo’s. What is the difference between a tux and a suit?

And then for the bravest thing I’ve done in quite a long time. <drum-roll please> I went over to Kali’s house. (that’s not brave) Dave was there. (or rather, he pulled in right behind me) We played Scrabble. I lost. I’m not good with words. I may watch Lingo, but I’m not any good at it. I occasionally know the answers to some of the other game shows. Have you ever just knew the answer to a question, but you’re in the middle of kissing? You just got to say it, because if you hessitate then the idiots on the show are going to say it, and then you don’t look smart at all. I mean anyone can say an answer after Alex Trebec says it, but it’s rare that you can get it out before Brian (who kinda looks like Dave) who can break the one day record.

Where was I again? That’s right, I’m sitting at the kitchen table with my ex-feance and her

boyfriend. I’m trying to act naturally, trying to avoid wanting to reach across the table and ripping his throat out, and doing a fairly decent job of it. “Hate, Sex, Debit, Loony, Heroine” These are the words that go through my mind. Game ends, and I leave. I made great progress, but it’s going to take me still some more time. I drove by to find Ryan (no lights), John (not home) so I drove, up and down Hines drive. Then I came home and wrote a live journal entry. I need to go back out. It’s only 9:30, and I’m leaving tomarrow night. So off I go… watch me go now.

Could I change the way you feel

Could I make you see there’s more than holding on

Could you ever let your heart believe again

So this is where we are

And this is all that life has got to give

Or maybe all that’s left is just to live

Caught up in when or whether

I didn’t wanna tell a lie

But I saw forever, there in your eyes

So what you’re trying to say

Do you really think it’s worth just walking away

Well is it fair to tell me I’m to blame

Well you know you gotta choose

And you know that you’re afraid of what you’ll lose

How can you believe what just aint true

Caught up in when or whether

I didn’t wanna tell a lie

But I saw forever, there in your eyes

I know it’s now or never

How could you ever say goodbye

When you see forever here in my eyes

And baby forgive me, cuz I got nothing left to hide

And don’t ever leave me, cuz there’ll be nothing left inside

Could I change the way you feel

Could I make you see there’s more then holding on

Could you ever let your heart believe again

Caught up in when or whether

I didn’t wanna tell a lie

But I saw forever, there in your eyes

I know it’s now or never

How could you ever say goodbye

When you see forever here in my eyes

I just finished the glass of alcohol I had made for myself last night… I made it stronger than I thought. I’m going to go rollerblading now

Okay, It’s been an entire week since I’ve written anything worthwhile and I guess I should really get this all down before I forget it all. After my last post on Monday, I went over to Ryan’s house. I offered to put their band up on Mp3.com. (I haven’t done it yet.) We were going through a whole bunch of pictures looking for good pics of the band members. I was in only one picture that he had and that was from Halloween.

Now that I’ve been going there more often, I assume that I will end up appearing in more pictures. I left a little too early to go to Brian’s for wrestling. I stopped at 7-11 and got a pop and a big bag of chips. I go over to Brian’s, but he wasn’t there yet. I drive around a bit, until Jacob and John got there. I sit in Jacob’s car until Brian gets back. Brian had to leave early, so we all ended up sitting in his

house without him. We all left as soon as RAW was over.

Next day, Tuesday. I go out to Ann Arbor for lunch with Kali, we went to Subway. As I was leaving her

work, Mark called me up and gave me an offer I couldn’t really refuse. I go over to Candice’s house, waiting for Mark to call me back. He called me and I went over to his

house. I only intended to be there for a little bit, but ended up staying almost 2 hours. The plus side is, Chris also let me borrow an extension cord for the PS2. I go back to Candice’s’ and there the rest of the night.

Wednesday. I babysat Emit. He’s a good kid, so it’s really easy. Next, (well a few hours later, I have no idea what I did during that time though) I went to Ryan’s house. They had finished their Demo tape, so we listened to that. I talked to Aug about reading signs. She had this book about it. She said something about Pisces are attuned to it.

Later on I was talking to Katie about ghosts, which I have never experienced anything of the sort, but I’m willing to accept the possibility. I also mentioned that in the Discordian calendar, I was born at the exact moment of the very peak of chaos. (I still insist that I was born a minute later at 5:23 despite what my birth certificate may say)

Schneider was picking up a bit on what I was saying, and I got to tell him a little bit about what Eris is all about. You know, as a Discordian priest, and as someone who has spent the past 6 and a half years studying the balance of chaos and order, I am not a very good missionary. I just can’t explain it well enough to people. I still want to get my tattoo. The way I see it, I’ve been into this for a good 7 years, and even if I one day have a crisis of faith, I don’t think I would ever regress to the point that I would regret what is essentially a yin-yang tattooed on my arm. It’s not like it’s getting a pentagram with a naked woman sitting atop it on your forearm. While that may be a cool idea for a tattoo, you run the chance that you may not always feel that way 20 years from now.

So where was I? See this is what happens… I was writing, then I left for a bit, and now I’ve come back. (foreshadowing… ) After we left Ryan’s, John and I met up with Jacob and we drove out to Matt’s house. I’m glad that things have been going rather well with Jacob considering each of our parts in the whole Candice issue. So we went out to Matt’s. They were playing Hockey on the X-Box. I was watching this couple fight. It was fun. She brought up this time that she was drunk and kissing this other girl, and that he minded at that time, and he replied that it wasn’t that that had pissed him off that night, but the fact that she was flashing these other guys. After this he got kind of distant to her, and she got kind of sad, and they just had that kind of seeping anger. He was playing the game, so he had kind of an excuse. ahh… people are fun.

Thursday, woke up, went to Christin’s. I hadn’t been over there in a while, it just turns out that for whatever reason, it had been a few days since we’ve hung out. Next, I went to Candice’s. I was there for a few hours. I wanted to go out and do something that night, and she didn’t quite like it that I was going to leave. I knew that it was going to be a slight problem, but I wanted to be out, but I also wanted to see her. So was it wrong for me to show up there for only a few hours and then leave, or was it better to just not see her that day? So I had gotten two calls. I picked up John and brought him to Dave’s. We hung out in the garage.

Friday, I went to Ann Arbor. It was Kali’s turn to pay, but she needed to cash her check. We went to the party store, but they would only cash from places in Ann Arbor. It was, it was in the same plaza, but they didn’t have it on their list. Next, we tried Kroger, only Kroger’s paychecks. Next, Meijer’s, they won’t cash hand-signed checks, so that was pretty much all the time we had, so there goes our hour, go home, go to Christin’s. <breif interlude in writing> We play Lord of the Rings Risk again, Candice’s won this time. Cindel threw up on Candice’s again, we had pizza again, this time from crazy’s, then we did something we’ve never done before, we went to see Anias.

The show was good, but the sound tech was an idiot. Pelto put the drums out front, because he didn’t trust the rickety stage, Matt’s microphone kept going out on him, or they needed to turn it up or something. The Drums were too loud, pelto plays hard, and you need to know that he’s going to fill the room enough without needing that much amplification, I had a good time, but Candice and Christin aren’t into that as much,

We head home and decide to rent some movies. We rented Red Dragon. I just finished the book and haven’t seen the movie yet. I wanted to rent Cartoon All-Stars To The Rescue, but no one else wanted to. We go back to Christin’s all ready to sit down, make some popcorn and watch a movie, ken say ‘oh no your not, go to Duck’s’ You see, the thing is, Ken & Christin’s roommate, Lee, still hasn’t moved any of his furniture over yet, so he’s been sleeping on her couch, and he had to work in the morning, so christin was left without her livingroom on her one social night of the week.

Mind you they’ve been living there for two months. So we go to my

house. We get everything all set up, I make the popcorn, turn off the lights, (scary movies must be done in the dark) my

brother calls. Now I love my

brother, but I can’t wait till he get’s his own car, I am not his Taxi. I get him, get back, we watch the movie, I was suprised at how much of the dialog was taken directly from the book. I did notice a few minor changes. (He wasn’t the father of the boy, he was her’s from her first marriage)

Christin goes out for a cigarette, and I notice that she hasn’t been back in in a while. We call her up and find out that she had decided to walk home. I go and pick her up and take her

home. She would have really regretted that by the time she got almost home.

Saturday. I stayed home for most the day. Candice came over in the morning. I fell back asleep. I woke up when my

brother needed a ride somewhere. Renfer Taxi. I don’t know what’s been wrong with me, but I’ve been really tired lately. I yawn all the time, and I’ve just been feeling tired all the time.

Eventually I went over to Ryan’s. I hung out there until KO, then we went to Julie’s, they were playing Tetris and Dr. Mario. then we went to Dave’s. then we went to Cole’s, <another pause in writing, day changes>

Sunday, I hung out at home for most of the day, It’s kinda funny that on my weekends, the time when most people decide to go and do their things, I use my time to just hang around the house. I also think it’s funny that with all the time that I was out of the house yesterday, that I would say that I spent a lot of time at home. I spent almost the entire day (off and on) trying to write this post.

Blue called me up and I went over to his house to hang out. We went to the Garden City Cafe. We ran into Danny, and this other girl, I can’t remember her name. (remind me to figure that out sometime.) I was helping her with her Math homework. I actually like math, I was lucky to have one of the best teachers in Garden City for 3 years in a row.

I really need to go back to school. I tried to do too much last time I was in school. We had just moved into our appartment, Kali didn’t have a job, and was still in High School, I was working 40 hours a week to pay the bills at McDonald’s and going to school full time, and I’ve never been the world’s best student, I have a bit too much ADD in me for that. So Blue and I drove around some more, we went up to his work, so he could buy some wooden pieces for Shogun, we stopped by the Bailey’s Center and saw the skate park they have there.

I’m not a skateboarder at all, but I’ve been thinking about getting some aggressive inline skates for this year. I know that I will most likely never be able to do any tricks or anything like that, but if I’m going to try, I might as well have the propper equipment. I go home, and later I went to TGI Friday’s with my family. Andy’s friend’s mom works there, so we got all our food for the price of drinks, after that I went to Blue’s house and played Shadowrun with Blue, Justin, Craig, and Dick. I had a great time. This is the first shadowrun campaign that I’ve been a part of that wasn’t run by me or by someone who I taught how to play. I hope we’ll play more often. I didn’t get home till 6:30 this morning. got some sleep, woke up, and finished this post. There were some things missing, but I guess that’s what happens when you try to sum up an entire week in one post. Someone get on my back to write at least every other day. It’s a lot less to remember.

This is from a text generator program where I answered a few questions, and it tried to tell me who I was. It was way off, so James and I did some slight modifnordication to it.

if you want to read the original. go here

Since when has wanting a dead-beat father, to step up and take some fucking responsibility for once in his life, become money grubbing?

Flame on!

Well lets see… Tuesday, Candice came over. It was nice because we haven’t gotten all that many chances to be alone together.

After she left, I went over to Kali’s and talked to her for about an hour, then I went home and did some laundry, then I went rollerblading. It was lightly drizzling and it felt good. Next, I went over to Candice’s house. I was kinda tired from skating, but I eventually started to feel better.

Frank and Candice got into yet another fight. That is nothing new or surprising, what really pissed me off was when other people began to try to become a part of it. I know I have no right to feel angry about this, everyone has a right to their own opinion, but it makes me sad that we as people can be so hideous. Oh well, children play their games. And the stories of who hit who first never match, that’s just the way life is.

I think it’s interesting that it made me angry at all. I try my hardest to remain neutral in as many of the conflicts as possible. If I started disliking people because another of my friends disliked them, then I would end up hating everybody. Maybe it’s just now that I have somewhat of a stake in this matter. Today I babysat Emit. He’s a really good kid for me, and wasn’t that much trouble at all. I got a lot of reading done.

Next, I went out to Ann Arbor. It only took 3 days for me to finally break down and go out there. It really wasn’t that bad. Keep in mind, that I enjoy driving, so the distance isn’t that severe, and it was a beautiful day out. We went to Subway. I have been wanting Subway for a while now. I tried to call James, but he was at work. I went downtown. I roller bladed through U of M campus. I went in a few used book stores, and sat on a bench and read.

John called me and asked if I wanted to hang out. I couldn’t find my

car. I knew it was on the top of the parking structure by the theater, but I didn’t know there were 2 parking structures, and couldn’t for the life of me figure out how to get to the other one.

Kali, if you ever read this, you were right. The donkey is on Wayne. I got to John’s just as Pelto and Matt were showing up. John had to go to band practice. I went home for a few hours then went to Ryan’s. Picked up my

brother, took him

home, went back.

2nd official fire of the summer. I love campfires. I miss the fires we used to have in Kali’s back yard. Blue called me and invited me over to his house to Shadowrun. I created a character, but haven’t been introduced yet. I need to fine tune him anyway. I had fun, but now I have hiccups. It hurts. Bah this sucks