Daniel E. Renfer’s Blog

I awake, I get dressed and go out to my car for a cigarette. I started reading Dianetics. I always love to make fun of the scientologists, but I really have no idea what their religion is about. I read one chapter today.

While I was outside, Christin called. I showered and went over to her house. It was way too cold to even consider going skating today. When I got there she was talking to Candice on the phone. Christin and I talked for a bit.

Next, I went to the party store by Long John Silver’s. Unfortunately, they were out of pepperoni rolls, so I went to LJS. Carrie offered me my job back. They need help on Fridays. If I could manage to get paid under the table, I might actually consider it, if only to satisfy the masochistic portion of my personality. That and I wouldn’t want to close. I have plans on Friday nights and I wouldn’t want to give that up. But I would love to just work one night.

Next, I went to Candice’s house. There were some tense emotions, but everything turned out fine. We have been getting along so well together. It’s really nice. No matter what happens, I’m glad I’ve gotten to do this. I really wish that Kali wasn’t such an issue. The issue is that she’s an issue for me.

Unfortunately, my process of healing is far from over. I don’t want my struggling with my feelings for her to come as a problem for Candice and I, or anyone for that matter. I had a very bad night Saturday night/Sunday morning and it came at a very bad time for Candice and I. (The timing was touchy)

Next, I went looking for John. He wasn’t home, so I looked at Dan-O’s. We wasn’t there, but Dan-O was. We tried to fly cars over the bridge in GTA. Next, I went to Wrestling. Jacob said to me. “Just so you know, I don’t even care anymore.” Then he tried to say something else, but I couldn’t quite make it out.

I left early, because I had plans to play Shogun with Ben at Denny’s. He never showed, but then again, I said it was doubtful that I would be up there. I ran into Phil and Amanda and Alissa. (New Person) She was sitting with this other guy. (His name escapes me at the moment) (New Person) But he got up when his friend. (Sarah (New Person) ) Phil thought that he knew her from somewhere. (Which is usually my job) Alissa is a pagan. and she’s into the whole spirits and powers and stuff.

I know that I occasionally get feelings of things, but I don’t think I’m all that special in this respect. Most of the “Power Users” I have encountered in my life, while they may indeed have some ability, usually over-exaggerate it. She said that she was getting weird vibes off me, and that she felt like there was something that she was supposed to say to me, and didn’t know if it was good or bad. I don’t know. And then I came home, and here I am.

Okay, It’s been a really long time since I’ve just sat down and wrote a really good journal entry.

I tried experimenting with an outline style, but I couldn’t get it right. It was nice for getting all the facts right, but it lacked in the raw emotion that is attached to those events. So I guess I’m backlogged till Thursday.

I went over to Candice’s house. She had a few hours before she had to pick up Emit and it was nice to spend some time with her. After we each went our separate ways, I went home and basically completely nerded out on my computer. I did this for quite a few hours, till I decided to go over to Ryan’s.

I wasn’t going over there with anyone, and I didn’t really have an agenda. Everyone was in the back. First fire of the summer. I’m glad I got to be there to experience that event. I played Shogun in the dark, lit only by firelight, with Blue.

I also was able to discuss mortgages with someone. There is no good reason why I should be able to know anything about mortgages, but I listen to Melissa talk about her day at work everytime we go to lunch together, so I tend to pick up a bit.

Next, I went over to Blue’s house. I had some 7-7. We watched a bit of Blade Runner. I might be joining a shadowrun campaign. (one where I’m not the GM) I want to spend some time playing, then I can resurrect my campaign.

Next, I went to Denny’s. I ran into Ben. I taught him how to play Shogun. He caught on pretty well. I beat him the first time, but the second time he got me in a stupid move. (I didn’t see that his assassin could get my

shogun)

Friday: I went to lunch with Melissa. We had to go to Meijers’ to cash her check. We tried to go to one of the Mexican restaurants in Canton. It couldn’t hold a candle to Amigo’s. She said something that upset me, and I cried almost the whole way to Christin’s house. We went rollerblading in the park. We only did one lap, plus I did one by myself.

I go home for a bit, then my

brother and I had to drive up to the Garden City HS parking lot to meet with my Grandparents. My aunt was in town from Colorado for the week, and they came to take us to dinner.

We decide to go to Friday’s. We drove out to where I thought this place should be, but it wasn’t. It was a Ruby Tuesday’s. Right idea, wrong day of the week. I got to see my cousin. He’s 8 months old. Master of the high pitched scream. My aunt is pregnant again, so I will have 2 cousins.

Why is it, that no matter what, I’m referred to as the uncle. I am not an uncle. I would have been close had I married Melissa, but that would only be uncle through marriage. Gas Station - Buy mood ring. Ken & Christin’s. Ken’s parents were in town. We had to take the baby over to his great-grandmother’s house. My mood ring was black inside her house, but went back to blue after our tour of the house.

We went back, but I had to pick up my brother from the skating rink. I got to meet his new girlfriend. She seems pretty cool. I need a better experience with her… too soon to really judge. I go back and we watch Ghost Ship. Good movie, but I’ve seen it before.

After the movie, they kicked us out, so Candice came back to my place. We had a really good night. My life is now forever changed. I have faced many of my fears, and you know what? It wasn’t that bad. Things with candice have been so amazing. Things have been coming so naturally with us. Who would have thunk it?

Saturday: Go to Candice’s. Leave because she had to take a shower. (Despite my desire to join her) I go over to Ken & Christin’s. Candice comes over a little bit later. We watch “Signs”. That was a really good movie. I go home and watch most of “Donnie Darko”

Kali comes over and we go back to Ken & Christin’s. We play magic, and the Eucre. And we drink Butterscotch shnapps. Very tasty. I had a really good time, but on the way home I broke down again. Usually if I start to cry one day, I find myself rather vulnerable for the next few days. Plus the alchohol didn’t help any.

Sunday: I left home with the intentions of coming right back. I ended up going to the Westland library. I owed $50. I’m glad I got it paid off. Now I can check out books freely.I go home, and Andy asks me to give him a ride to his friend’s house. On my way there, John calls me.

I go over to Greg’s house and we hang out there. Next, we go to Ryan’s. We watch Dogma and Whatever it takes. Tim calls and says he has Wrestlemania. We go over there. I’m glad I got to see it. Next, we go to Joe’s. They duct taped Joe and Erin together. Ahhh… drunk people are so fun. I haven’t gotten a chance to talk to Candice today. I haven’t really been home much today. I wore my KMFDM shirt, and I found myself wishing I could change it all day. Well, I’m off to sleep now. I will continue my adventures in the morning.

http://www.livejournal.com/community/journaltypes/467.html

1. A - Act your age? 10 1/2 Wide
2. B - Born on what day of the week? Sunday
3. C - Chore you hate? Laundry. (I always want to do it, but never can stay interested)
4. D - Dad’s name? David
5. E - Essential makeup item? Nail Polish (on one pinky)
6. F - Favorite actor? Tim Curry
7. G - Gold or silver? Silver (or White Gold)
8. H - Hometown? Jackson, MI (or Garden City, MI)
9. I - Instruments you play? Recorder
10. J - Job title? Freelance Individual
11. K - Kids? They’re small humans… didn’t you know that?
12. L - Living arrangements? I live upstairs
13. M - Mom’s name? Kathleen
14. N - Number of people you’ve slept with? One
15. O - Overnight hospital stays? Last summer
16. P - Phobia? Silence
17. Q - Quote you like? “Paradise on my right. Hell on my left, and the Angel of Death behind.” - Frank Herbert “Dune”
18. R - Religious affiliation? Discordian / Reluctant Agnostic
19. S - Siblings? 1 Brother, 2 ex-step brothers, 3 ex-step sisters
20. T - Time you wake up? between 9 and 11
21. U - Unique habit? same tapping pattern as the baron Harkonnen (self taught)
22. V - Vegetable you refuse to eat? Cantaloupe (ok, sure it’s actually a fruit)
23. W- Worst habit? I don’t feel I am fit to decide which of my many annoying habits is the worst
24. X - X-rays you’ve had? Chest (last summer)
25. Y - Yummy food you make? Spaghetti
26. Z - Zodiac Sign? Gemini

ftp://68.42.229.97/hitme.mp3

could someone tell me if this works? I can’t get my dns server to work right now. (should be back up soon) and I just set up the ftp server and re-did my routers settings then I mixed this song. (I’ve had a very geeky day)

ftp://kronk.homedns.org/hitme.mp3

that’s the link as soon as it starts re-directing to it.

What do you think of this file… I’ll finish it later maybe.

• Monday
  • Finished LiveJournal post
  • Went to Kali’s
    • Talked to family
    • Sat on back porch with Kali and Rayna
      • $15 for Driver’s License
      • Dave Called
        • “Hey Kali, want to hit this bowl?”
  • Wrestling
    • Everyone was in the garage
    • Talk to Dave about Jacob
    • I was first upstairs, so I got the pick of my seat.
    • Dave got a new Game Cube
      • Saw Batman Vendetta & Super Monkey Ball
    • John and Jacob went to Matt’s
    • Valerie and Mike were there
      • They’re engaged
• Tuesday
  • Picked up Christin and Cindel
  • Went to lunch with Kali
    • This was the first time that Kali has seen the baby, and she hasn’t talked to Christin since the time that we went over to her old house
  • Candice’s house
    • Christin left the baby there, so she could get some rest
    • Fixing Candice’s computer.
      • Burned copy of Office XP
        • Serial number was invalid
        • had to go home and message with new SN#
      • Printer not working
        • Had to find Parallel PCI card
          • Tried to order one from Michigan Micro
          • When I got there, they were closing
        • Hercomputer doesn’t have a built in Parallel port
    • Frank dropped off Emit
      • Candice, Cindel and I were laying on her bed
      • Frank didn’t like that
    • Emit playing outside with local kids
      • girl named Kali
    • Emit got sick
      • Threw up on his bed
      • Threw up a few more times that night
  • Dan-O’s house
    • Watched Contortionists
    • Watched Robin Hood
• Wednesday
  • Didn’t have to watch Emit, because he was sick and Candice came home.
  • Christin’s house
    • She’s mad at Ken because he didn’t mail rent
    • Too cold to go rollerblading
  • Picked up McDonald’s
    • Went to one I used to work at, saw kid I used to work with.
  • My house
    • Got Asheley’s AIM name
      • Haven’t really talked to her yet.
    • Playing Diablo
      • Patched Christin’s copy
      • duped her items. My character now has a whole bunch of perfect gems.
      • About to really start playing, but cindel was fussing.
    • Talk to Candice online.
      • She presented me with a challenge
  • Candice’s house
    • Defeated challenge easily.
    • Emit still not feeling well
    • Watching TV
      • I’m starting to see a lot of shows that I never got to watch, because at this time I would have normally have been at work, and I only see the shows that I collect.
    • I still don’t like Tuna Fish, I tried it one night when Dave was eating it and I almost threw up in Garret’s van. (outside Farmer Jack)
  • Home
    • Andy has a new girl.
      • They’re not going out yet, but will.
      • From the way he described her, she sounds pretty cool.
      • I’ll meet her one day.
    • Sat in car with Andy.
      • Dipped into chamber a little.
    • Played FFX
      • Leveling up in thunder plains.
    • Got a little drunk.
• Thursday
  • Watched episode of Smallville I havn’t seen yet.
  • Had cigarette with Mom
    • She’s getting a new job.
  • Wrote Live Journal post.
  • <insert future event’s here>

• Saturday
  • Played FFX
  • Went to John’s
    • Just till Candice called me.
  • Hung out at my house with Candice
    • Watched puppy
  • Talked to Mom
    • She was going to be all alone in the house.
  • Went to Mark’s house
    • Watched Biodome
      • I can’t believe I found profound truths about the rise and fall of society, and the balance of chaos and order in this movie.
    • Ordered 3 large pan pizza’s & 2 breads
      • Free Cinnasticks!
      • $12 tip
        • Freaked delivery guy out
        • My $5 went to tip, as it should be.
      • Trying to order pizza on a phone that keeps going into sleep mode just when you’re about to call, forcing you to come back inside, because you went outside to call because Mark is being really loud is a total buzz kill.
    • Mark and Lisa are engaged, but I fear that they might want to think about weather or not they really want to get married.
  • Looking for Eric’s party
    • Page Pelto
    • Go to Ram’s Horn, ask Dan-o
  • Eric’s party
    • Music
      • Joe
        • Played a really long time
      • Jam session
      • Ryan, backed by blue
        • Blue couldn’t match the drunken beat pattern of 15 people singing the wrong words to a sublime song, which ryan didn’t know how to play.
      • Blue
      • Upstairs: Sublime then Pantera
    • New People I had any sort of conversation with:
      • Trevor
        • Has read the Illuminatus
      • Theresa
        • Has heard a lot about me.
        • friends with Dan-o
      • Sarah
        • don’t push her, or she’ll have to hit me in the face.
        • has a specific plan for her one night stand
        • Allison’s sister.
    • The problem with being at a party where you didn’t bring any beer is: You always feel like an ass because you have to ask someone for a beer.
  • Dan-o’s house
• Sunday
  • puppy-sat
  • read
  • Went to Candice’s house
    • Pick up sub’s from Tubby’s for her family
  • Went home
    • Dead Zone was a rerun
    • had a drink
    • watched Andy play FFX
      • He’s not leveling up some of his characters enough.
      • I’m still farther than him, I usually only play a video game until the person who steals it from me gets farther than I am, then I never play again.
  • Looking for John
    • Dan-o is still at work
    • Knock on John’s door, feel bad because it’s 11.
  • Looking for Dan-o
    • Not at Joe’s. and Joe is about to go to sleep.
    • See Dan-o as we are pulling away.
  • Dan-o’s house
    • I ran out of cigarettes so I got 2 off Dan-o
• Monday
  • Awoken by Christin calling.
  • Play FFX
  • Shower
    • Kali calls
  • Go to Lunch with Kali
    • We each get just pops
    • Find out the waitress that I kept saying “I know her” about is a girl I used to go to church with.
  • Rollerblading with Christin
    • A complete lap around garden city park takes me an average of 7.5 minutes. It took the three of us like 25 minutes. That includes stopping
    • These squiells were getting really close to me. I could almost touch them.
  • Christin’s House
    • Sit there worn out as Cindel get’s a bottle.
    • Ken get’s home
    • Sit in laundry room for a while, while cindel sleeps.
  • Come home.
    • Write Journal
    • Chicken Cordon Bleu
      • Jeff hurt himself on a toothpick
  • Future plans: Wrestleing at Brian’s tonight. Gonna be fun. (long story) Maybe Ryan’s before, maybe Dan-o’s after, maybe dropping a disk off at Candice’s. Maybe thermonulear war. (one could only hope)

Well yesterday I played a bit of FFX, then as I was about to go rollerblading, Kali called me. Yesterday was her first day at this new office. She trained at one out in BFE for 3 days, but then they transferred her to Canton. A whole lot has happened to me since I’ve last talked to her, and I had this big long rant that I was saving up to unload on her, but it was a few days too late.

I know I shouldn’t be seeing her, but there are certain things that I can only talk about with her, and I value her friendship. I never want to lose that friendship, her love is another matter. I don’t want her to interfere in any relationship I try to have. (That’s really more up to me than to her.)

After lunch, I stopped in the record store next to her work. Didn’t buy anything. I did 3 laps in the park. I’ll did 10 the other day, and am still a little tired from it. Next, I went to John’s. We talked about old video games. We went to pick up Greg. We drove around for quite a bit, then went back to my place.

We watched a bunch of Sealab and Aqua Teen. Next we went to Ryan’s. I never have felt 100% at home in that circle of people, but I like all of them. (last time I was there was new year’s) We were listening to Ryan and John play, and Pelto put in some of the new songs his band has done. hear. Greg split with us, and everyone else left, so it was just me, John, and Ryan for about a half hour.

We listened to their CD. (Some of it sounded pretty good, but it was a bad recording) Next, John and I went to Dan-O’s. After foosball, I went into the bedroom with John, while Dan-O watched TV. As I was leaving I saw that Frank was there.

I went home and slept. Played more FFX. Watched the new puppy. Oh, I completely forgot… We got a new puppy yesterday. She’s a German Shepard / Chow mix. She’s tiny. Next, I went to Christin’s and hung out with her. I went to Farmer Jack and turned in a dollar’s worth of bottles. Why is it that they don’t make food with practically no preparation, that’s not junk food. I didn’t really want junk food, but I wasn’t anyplace where I could cook. I got the cheap lunchables.

Now I am home. I plan on going to Candice’s house later on. We’re babysitting Cindel. It’s the end of Christin’s six weeks. (you’re not supposed to have sex for up to six weeks after giving birth. (although I don’t think they’ve followed doctor’s orders.)) I would have liked to go to the Anias show tonight, but I don’t really have the money, can’t find anyone to go with me, and don’t think I’m going to like the other bands. I try to go see their shows, but have only made it like once. (I missed them for some reason or another every other time)

It’s amazing how quickly everything can completely change on you. Tuesday, after last post. I took a nap, when I was supposed to be playing video games. (Where are my priorities?) I went over to Candice’s house. I missed Children of Dune on Monday. They were playing the second part before they showed the last part. This means I get to be a total dork for a full 4 hours. Ahh, Dune was so good. Very well done. I need to watch it again as soon as I find myself completely bored with 6 hours on my hands.

Christin came over for a little bit, because Cindel was being fussy. They didn’t stay very long. Candice was trying to steal my lighter, so she could annoy me by doing my exact same nervous habit I do all the time. (I twirl a lighter or anything else of similar size in my fingers)

Needless to say, I got a good grip and she couldn’t get it. (although we had a really good time fighting over it) She’s not that ticklish, but I really am. I make up for this by being stronger and having longer arms. But it’s hard to get at her ticklish spots when she’s fighting me for a lighter.

I have been very confused about Meghan and was thinking of breaking up with her. Things were good at the beginning, but they trailed off. I liked her, but we had a lot of differences, and I didn’t feel like I could be myself around her. So I ended up doing something I’m not all too proud of. I kissed her again. My relationship with Meghan was at an end, but I was still technically with her.

The problem is, we didn’t stop. (apparently we have a problem stopping kissing) I went home and got some sleep. Cindel came over first thing in the morning. Christin had to go to the doctor’s so I babysat for her. She slept for most of the time, I played FFX while she slept. I gave her a bottle, and Christin came back before I had to change her diaper.

I helped fix Christin’s computer. then I went over to her house for a few minutes. I just realized that my nap happened on Tuesday, not Monday as I previously stated. I talked to Meghan a little bit, and ended up going out there. Things were really odd. We sat there and didn’t talk, didn’t really touch, didn’t do anything. I wanted to make it work, but I felt guilty as fuck and knew it was over. I said “I don’t think this is going to work” she felt the same way.

Probably the easiest breakup possible. We’ve talked today. It’s looking like we’re going to be able to stay friends. This makes me feel so much better. I liked her a lot, but she never could be a part of my world, and I couldn’t come to grips with that. This would have been a problem even if Candice was nowhere to be seen. I wish her the best of luck. It would have been nice to try to make it last longer, but we’re better off not tempting to bring us to the ugly places that relationships can reside in.

I gave her a hug and said goodbye. She was by far my shortest relationship ever. (I haven’t had all that many relationships to speak of) So now things with Candice are finally starting to take off, and it’s been really good. We’ve clicked really well, but we have a problem stopping. (I guess that’s not all that bad of a problem if you think about it. (unless we have something to be doing))

So here I stand. My life has been completely turned on end in the matter of a few days. I think it’s been for the better. (a little more than think) I just kinda wish I hadn’t told people about Meghan, now I’m going to have to tell them that we’ve broken up. Ahh, good old chaos. The war’s started, Armageddon is well under way, and here I stand in it’s midst, taking it all in. “It’s gonna be a glorious day” - Radiohead

Violent video games and television don’t make people violent. They just give violent people something to do.

After my last post, I watched the new episode of Dead Zone. Andy was right, it wasn’t all that good. Oh well.

Next on my agenda was I went up to Denny’s. I got there about 1:17. I ordered the chicken strips. About halfway through my first strip I noticed that it was undercooked or it just looked weird in the middle. Now I know most people would probably freak out at this and make a big fuss, but I just didn’t finish that one and ate the rest. They were fine.

I was reading my new book while I was waiting for Ger. I took my break at the end of the chapter to add more sugar to my coffee, light a cigarette, and get my grips about me. I was just about to continue reading, when Ger walked in. Ger’s a pimp. He just walked in when the girl at the end of the counter was leaving. She came up to him and gave him a hug and was rubbing his back a little. I really have no idea why. He didn’t even really say anything to her. She walks off, the waitress comes up and asks him “Do you want anything to eat.” I start cracking up. I can’t remember exactly what he said, but she responded “She’s not on the menu” shortly thereafter, I got him talking with the drunk chick that walked in. At first thought it seemed possible that she may have been just very outgoing and friendly, but slowly it started to sink in that, no, she was just really trashed. (The funny thing is… she got really bad once her friends walked in)

Ger and I were there way too long. We kept saying “Just one more cigarette and then we’ll leave” It was so foggy outside. I loved it. It made me want to film a horror film. (I need to finish the script that James and I started) We went to Ger’s house and sat in his driveway. Guy’s are so lucky. I feel sorry that girls don’t have the option of peeing on the other side of the garage. (Although I have actually met some that would)

Next day, Monday. Talked to Candice online and Meghan on the phone. Went to the cingular store. I got my phone turned back on. It pisses me off to see that the guy wrote “Refner” for my name. He was copying it off my driver’s license. And Marquette has an “E” at the end. He had to do something, so the woman came over to help me.

She was training a new girl. (That makes 3 people who’s first day was yesterday.) She showed me a list of like 6 numbers and let me choose which one I wanted. I chose the one I did because it is rememberable, and it allows me to easily get into the argument that the mark of the beast is supposed to be 616.

Beautiful day. I went rollerblading. I haven’t really skated since the summer, but I did 11.5 miles. I plan on skating more often, as long as it’s warm enough. (It’s a little chilly today)

Next I went to see Christin. She beat Baal. I got to feed Cindel. I was so sleepy from skating so much. I came home, and had 3 calls to make. Mark, John, and Melissa. I didn’t care that it was St. Patrick’s day. (I didn’t drink at all) plus I was going to Brian’s, so I couldn’t hang out with Mark. and I was going to pick up John.

Melissa was on her way out the door, so couldn’t talk long. (that stings) I go over to Dan-O’s to pick up John. Dan-O’s dad got hurt and was in the hospital. He’ll be okay. John and I go to Wrestling. I actually got to see a full episode.

Dave spilled Mt. Dew all over the place. He lost his seat for that. There were socks flying all over the place. If you don’t look when you throw one at Jacob, you’ll hit him in the nose everytime. Dave and I picked up Taco Bell. Because of this I now have a shitload of quarters. (Maybe I should hit up the Arcade) John and I went back to Dan-O’s.

His parents still weren’t home. Some Foosball playing occurred, then video games. I borrowed FFX. I went home and played. Slept. Played.

Then Candice came over. We sat and listened to music from my computer playing through my TV. I love my set up. I actually sat still for 5 minutes. (It was hard) She went back home. I talked to Meghan a bit online, but she logged off without saying anything. I called her up, and she wasn’t really saying anything. We were supposed to go see each other today.

We wouldn’t have much time before she has to go to work. She’s also not feeling good today. She has valid reasons, but I haven’t seen her since Thursday, and I was in a really <not exactly bad, but definately odd> mood. So I got a little angry. I drove around a bit to calm down. Driving is very calming to me. There is so much shit going on right now. I’m not sure if I can take all of this, but I guess I have no choice.

What happens if after we remove Saddam Hussein, the Iraqi people decide they would like to choose a new dictator. (Unity of vision eliminates confusion and indecision in leadership)

if a thousand monkeys with a thousand typewriters can produce Shakespeare, what happens if you have a thousand monkeys, but only one typewriter?

Duck just got a phone. Call him at (734) 788-4666

Well well well, I’m now officially only writing important things every other day. Maybe this week will provide me with a bit more structure, and I’ll get myself into some definite patterns. Saturday, after I got back from going out to the mall, I wrote my post and then just sat around being a general bum. It feels good. To not do anything, and feel comfortable not doing anything.

I talked to Meghan, both online and on the phone. We talked for an hour and a half. (I really need to find out if that’s a toll call or not) It was such a nice day. I spent most of my time when I was on the phone out in the back yard. I couldn’t go see Meghan because of problems she was having with her mother.

I planned on getting a hold of Frank later on, but Mark called me up. (To those of you who don’t know, Mark was my only friend in Elementary School) We were supposed to go bowling, but when we got there there was no open bowling. (That’s been happening to me a lot lately)

We went back to his house, and Chris, Lisa, and I watched the DVD that came with dotHack. It wasn’t that bad. Personally I don’t care much for anime, but I enjoyed that one. Mark was downstairs playing Mech Assault. (He just got X-Box live) We went downstairs and hung out for a bit. Chris was waiting for his friend to come over, and we were getting sick of waiting.

I tried to teach Mark

Shogun, but he didn’t have the concentration to try to learn. (It is really a rather hard game to play.) If anyone is interested in playing Shogun with me, just let me know. I keep my board in the car, and I would really like to start playing again. (Shogun is a board game similar to chess, primarily created by my friend Blue, but with a bit of creative input from me and Kali.)

Chris let me borrow his 2nd PS2, so now I just need to get a memory card and a copy of Final Fantasy X, and I’ll be all set to be the stereotypical bum. I left because I still wanted to keep my plans with Frank, John, and Dan-O. I went to Dan-O’s house, but they weren’t there, I went to Frank’s, and then back to Dan-O’s. I got fed up and went to Denny’s. They were really busy. I ended up running into Phil and Amanda (ref. 2-28-3) I’m really glad that I got to talk to Amanda again. She seems like a interesting person, I seem to be able to talk to her well, and I’ve already decided that I value Phil as a friend.

We sat up there and talked. They ate most of my fries. (I wasn’t going to eat them all) There was a whole bunch of people that just walked out right before their food was ready. Idiots. I went home and checked my messages. Candice and I have been going through a lot these past few months, and we had a few things that really needed to be said to each other.

My half of the things to say took quite a while to write. I finished my E-mail, made myself a drink and went to bed. You know why you are not supposed to drink right before bed? You wake up too early the next morning with a headache. I talked to a few people online, and just hung out most of the morning, then my brother and I went to Jackson.

He drove as far as Zeeb rd, but didn’t want to drive any farther. We went to the Toy House to see if I could find a good boomerang, but they are closed on Sundays. I’m going to have to go the next time I’m in Jackson, which I think will be sometime not in this coming week, but the next. My aunt is coming back home, and I would like to see her, so I think I will go out there sometime in the week.

We came home and played Vice City for a while, then I had to go over to Candice’s. My

brother didn’t want me to go, we usually hang out on Sunday nights, but I had already made plans to be over there for Children of Dune. It was really good. I am one of the biggest Dune fans you will ever meet. It is an obsession to me just like my many other obsessions. They followed rather closely to the book. I can’t wait to see the next 2 parts. I went home afterwards to try to make up for it, by spending time with my brother, but he went to bed shortly after I got home.

I plan to go to Denny’s to meet up with Ger at 1, if you read this in the next hour and fifteen minutes, then by all means, meet us up there, but if not. Feel free to call me tomorrow, although for best effect, actually hunt me down and find me. I can’t make plans, because plans always fall through. (I’m still trying to do too many things at once and cannot juggle very well)

So I would have to say the best way to get me to do something, is to hog-tie me and drag me to wherever I need to be, if you do not do this, then I’m afraid you’ll have little luck finding me. (I should fix that tomorrow) Kali starts her new job tomorrow. I wish her luck. I haven’t talked to her in a few days. This is probably for the best, at least until things are a little better settled, but there are things I need to talk to her about. I have no idea how Meghan’s orientation for her new job went. I haven’t talked to her since this morning. okay, Dead Zone is almost on, so I’m going to go watch it…

With a slight modifnordication (I don’t need this sent back and you don’t need to send it on either) I thought I’d share this with everyone. I got it, of course, from a mass-remailer.

Too many people put off something that brings them cookies just because they haven’t thought about it, don’t have it on their lap, didn’t know it was edible or are too hungry to depart from their refrigerator.

I was thinking one day about all those women on the Titanic who passed up the desert at their travel agency that fateful night in an effort to cut back, but instead were painted nude by Leonardo DiCaprio. From then on, I’ve tried to be a little more flexible.

How many women out there won’t eat at home because their husband didn’t let them out of the closet? Does the word “antidisestablishmentarianism” mean nothing to you?

How often have your kids dropped in to talk and sat in silence while you watched porn on television?

I cannot count the times I called my sister and said, “How about a threesome” She would gasp and stammer, “I can’t. I have clothes on. My hair is dirty. I wish I had known yesterday, I had an early fuck, It looks like rain.” And my personal favourite:

“It’s the 23rd.”

She died a few years ago. We never did have that orgy.

Because Americans cram so much crap into their lives, we tend to schedule our ass-kickings. We live on a sparse diet of soy burgers we make ourselves eat when all the condiments are perfect!

We’ll go back and visit the grandparents when they’re dead. We’ll entertain when we replace the fucking dog.

We’ll go on a second honeymoon when we get the courage to spend time together.

Life has a way of accelerating, as we get closer to a singularity. The days get shorter, and the list of promises we make to debt collection agencies gets longer.

One morning, we awaken, have a morning quickie, and all we have to show for our lives is a litany of “I must not fear. Fear is the mindkiller. Fear is the little death that brings total obliteration.”

When anyone calls my ’seize the dog’ friend, she is open to adventure and available for BDSM. She keeps an open mind on new ideas. Her enthusiasm for sodomy is contagious. You talk with her for five minutes, and you’re ready to skip out an elevator shaft.

My lips have not touched semen in 10 years. I love semen. It’s just that I might as well apply it directly to my stomach with a spatula and eliminate the foreplay. The other day, I stopped the car and bought a hooker. If my car had hit an pedestrian on the way home, I would have died happy.

Now…go on and have a nice day, you stupid fuck. Do something you WANT to… something on your ‘felony in 28 states’ list.

You are going to die soon and have only one phone call you could make to save you, whom will you call and what will you say? Why are you waiting?

Make sure you read this to the end; (I say this only because I know you gave up 20 lines ago) you will

understand why I’m doing this to you.

Have you ever watched kids playing on a merry go round and thought “Damn that’s sexy”? Ever

followed a butterfly’s erratic flight or stared directly at the sun?

Do you run through each day on the junk? When you ask, “How are you?” Do you hear the reply? Do you care?

When the day is done, do you lie in your bed with the next hundred whores running through your bed?

Ever told your child, “Tough shit, son.” And in your haste, not see his sorrow?

Ever lost your sense of touch? Let a good friend die? Just call to say “Do you have Prince Albert in a can?”?

When you worry and hurry through your day, It is like an unopened gift…. Probably wouldn’t have fit anyway… Life is not a race. Take it slower, use the people around you to cut down on your drag. Hear the music before the song begins.

It’s National Friendship Week! Show your friends how you’re so much smarter than them because you know this.

Send this to everyone you consider a RANDOM E-MAIL ADRESS. If it comes back to you, then you’ll know you have a error in your mail daemon.

(k) Kopyleft 3169. Lord Anas M. Nebuchadnezzar XXXVII, KRONK Cabal

Okay, Perhaps it’s time now to sit down and try to think about what I’ve been doing these past few days. Thursday I went to Meghan’s house. She was being really stir crazy and I had to try and calm her down. We were going to go bowling. (neither of us can bowl) but there was no open bowling.

We went and dropped off a video for her parents. and then we went to CVS so she could get some prescriptions filled. We had a half hour or so to kill, so we tried to find coin rolls. CVS didn’t have them, so we tried the grocery store and Aco. No coin rolls. We stopped in the Coney island (the same Coney that we all stopped in the day my car broke down on the way to the lake.)

2 plates of fries later, we went to pick up her prescription. I went to go jump up and off this planter thing, but my foot slipped. I almost fell. That would have been not cool. Next we went to a used CD store because she had a bunch of CD’s that she wanted to get rid of.

I can never get rid of anything and it’s really hard to watch her do this. I made her go through her CD’s again, and really think if she wanted to part with those CD’s or not. She traded in a few CD’s and bought a couple more. Next we went to the second hand book store next door. I bought Red Dragon. (One of the Hannibal Lecter books) The lady that worked there was really nice.

Next we went up to her brother’s work and talked to him for a few minutes. He gave her a free car wash. (He works for a dealership) “If you drive fast, it won’t freeze” We still hadn’t found any coin rolls, so we went to Meijers’ again. In their stationary aisle, we ran into one of her old friends that she hadn’t talked to in a while. (I felt totally out of place, but I assume I wasn’t as uncomfortable as the two of them were.) We still couldn’t find any coin rolls. We asked the lady that worked there. She didn’t know. Some other people came up looking for safes, so I went to go help them, by checking the other side. I found coin rolls. The only paper ones were the quarters, so we had to buy these crappy plastic rolls.

We went back to her house and rolled up her change. I never thought I could actually have fun rolling change. My fingers hurt because those rolls were nearly impossible to seal, and I had to end up sealing all of them. I talked to her parents for the first time. They had been seeing me for the past week, but we hadn’t been properly introduced.

I don’t want them to hate me. I am just some 21 year old guy who is dating their 18 year old daughter. I don’t think I’m as bad as I could be, but I see why they might have concern. I don’t intend to disrespect her. I went home (about 20 minutes after I was supposed to be gone (yep, they’re gonna hate me)) and I ended up talking to my brother. We were sitting out in my car just talking for an hour. My dome light has been staying on, and it was draining my battery.

The next day (Friday) I just hung out at home for a good portion of the morning. I talked to Meghan online, but didn’t really have plans to go see her. She was having some problems at home and with her doctors and was stressed out about it. (I still don’t know the outcome yet.) I went to go out to my car and lo and behold, my car wouldn’t start. My battery was dead.

I don’t have any jumper cables anymore. I gave my last pair to Kali. (She had the greater need of them) I posted my SOS on live journal. Frank was the first to respond. (I also tried to call a few people) Apparently frank didn’t know where my new house is, and went to my Ex Step Dad’s house. We are trying to keep our address from him, and I had to try to convey that message to frank without being too blunt. (2 minutes beforehand, Christin called so she was on her way up)

Christin came over and jumped me and then I went over to her

house. We played Lord of the Rings Risk. It was fun, but Christin kicked our asses. afterwards we watched The Ring and then we just kinda hung out. I took Candice

home, went home, and slept.

The next morning. (Saturday, today) Candice messaged me and asked if I wanted to go to Great Lakes Crossing with her. Sounded like fun… We got a little lost, and I was almost on E. I bought a new earring, but we had the hardest time trying to get it to clasp properly. I found a store that sold boomerangs, but they weren’t very good, so I didn’t get one. We walked around the mall for like 2 hours and only saw like half the mall.

I’ll have to go again sometime. It’s such a beautiful day out. Even driving through Detroit was nice. And now here I am… It’s 4:30 and I don’t know what I’ll be doing later on… So it goes.

When duck loses structure and is faced with abrupt changes, he loses the ability to focus. it is because of this that he feels unable to do a play by play account of his past 2 days by now, he tells himself that he will right in the morning, he cites his throbbing headache as the reason for his failure to become motivated to write. His ears are ringing. Bonno sings “Can you feel a little love” softly in the background as his neck and back start to hurt from the posture with which he is sitting.

Sitting up straight seems to help to clear his mind a bit, but the ringing in his ear is by now extremely painful. He had problems with his ears ever since he was a child. He had to have tubes put in his ears, because of this, swimming was very difficult, and in addition to his general problem of buoyancy and chronic asthma, he was never a very good swimmer.

But he is very regretful, but he just can’t seem to get a good flow tonight… and furthermore, even if he were to have a good flow, he has already spent a good portion of this at first to be short post to explain why he wasn’t posting that now he has to follow through on his pre-determined plan of procrastination… So I’ll probably write in the morning.